You know I find it strange that life is so different this year.  At the beginning of this year I went into it without thinking of what the end of the year would bring or what would happen this year in general.  And now I'm sitting in my room at 8:15 during winter break and realizing how this year has actually gone.  Most of the time I've been to stressed with just everything going on that I haven't looked at everything as a whole just different little pieces that mean so much more. 
Like there has just been so many more things that have happened this year than I wouldn't have expected and so much of what I expected hasn't happened.  I realize that I thought school was my stress and it's not, to be honest I haven't been as focused on school as I should be granted it's my last year and all but I should still be trying harder.  What's really been going on is I've had more drama this year and been pulled in so many different directions that I feel like I'm losing myself and not doing what I want or what I enjoy. 
So for my new years resolution (yes I realize that it hasn't happened yet) I'm going to pay more attention to myself and less attention on the petty things going on around me.  Who needs drama when they're only going to be with these people for a half a school year anyway?!?! not me! 
I don't care what anybody says and I really don't care about that many people for me to be worried about it,  I am going to be more independent and more confident and stick up for myself and my beliefs more than I have.  My thoughts matter and its wrong that they have been silenced for so long

I don't know what to do...my best friend is currently walking in the dark and in the rain because she has left her house...again
She said she was going to her ex's house who she's still in contact with and he lives by her but I've left a message on her phone saying that we will come pick her up and she can stay here but she hasn't called me back and I texted her ex and told him to text me back but I haven't heard
scratch that she just called and she's staying at his house...again I offered to come get her but she said that she would try to call me tomorrow
i'm feeling really helpless in this situation and I don't know what to do for her

Okay well surprisingly things were going really good...there was some drama but I was dealing with it.  Then we had Thanksgiving break which went something like this...

Monday was Twilight and some shopping with Katie and Sarah and Amber and Erin

Tuesday was my moms birthday where we went and saw Quantum of Solace and I dragged them all to like 20 minutes of Twilight and then we came home and had pizza popcorn crap...which is a tradition and watched Iron Man

Wednesay I did all of my college apps so now there done and I never want to see one ever again...but..

Thurdsay was Thanksgiving (duh) and so we're sitting at dinner and my parent's tell me they want me to go to the community college and they don't have enough money to send me to one of my choice schools (wondering why....they are completely remodeling the kitchen which is costing my entire tuition for like at least three years of school)

Friday I went shopping with Sammie and we had an amazing time because we needed to get Kory's 18th birthday presents because his party was that night which was pretty much amazing and so that was a blast day

Saturday I worked around the house and then went to see Twilight again with Stacey from my work and her husband and we saw the whole tree lighting ceremony thing so that was cool

Sunday I did my homework and read so that was a relaxing day...like the only one

Now we reach this week...so it's two of my friends birthday on thursday...Kayla turns 18 and Lauren turns 17 so I have no idea what I'm going to do for that...well Lauren and Kayla used to be best friends and now aren't friends anymore and I'm really good friends with both but so Kayla decided she wanted to go to the school dance this weekend which is bound to be lame because hardly anybody is going but it's what she wants for her birthday so I'm going. Well yesterday we bought our tickets but it took all of lunch and then i didn't see Sammie until Key Club that night. She goes on to say that I'm Kayla's minion because apparently i followed Kayla around all day and didn't hang out with her which must automatically make me her follower...so I didn't make a big deal about it but whatever she's trying to start stuff but I'm not going to let that happen!!! 

Okay so first off I was looking at all my old posts...and wow they are so long and boring and no wonder I never get any comments on them.  But actually now I've decided I don't care, I might try to shorten them a bit, but I enjoy ranting on here so we'll see.
Alright so two things to talk about:
SAT subject tests sucked...I mean they weren't awful, but you know no SAT is ever good.  but tests in general just pretty much suck! I got a 0 out of 25 on my ap statistics test today! I didn't even know that was physically possible to do, but apparently it is.  Because I did it!
Also I'm going to Six Flags on Saturday with a few friends, Lindsay, Aubrey and Kayla.  Originally I was invited like two weeks ago, but nothing had been discussed after that.  It was supposed to be all of us plus Lauren and possibly Sammie...but well monday aubrey (who's birthday is tomorrow thus the reason we are going to six flags) was sick so Kayla sort of announced to Lauren and I that Aubrey was only allowed to invite two people.  well if that was the case it was Lindsay and Kayla because they're better friends with Aubrey than me and Lauren.  So that made perfect sense to me, but Lauren got all pissed off about it.  Then Aubrey was back at school on Wednesday and we were talking about it. and the whole thing was that Aubrey didn't want Lauren to go because she's been starting a bunch of stuff with Kayla.  So now I'm going on Saturday and Lauren doesn't know...
i'm not to worried that she can get mad at me, but if or more likely when she finds out she's going to be pissed at Kayla and Aubrey.  so idk

that's what's going on right now, plus all my college stuff which I'm trying to take calmly.

I guess lets see I went camping a couple weekends ago. That was pretty fun....really cold....but fun.  My friend and I went exploring the different campsites! that was so funny, we kept going to ones people were already at so that didn't work to well but it was funny the looks people gave us

Then this last friday I went to my friend Meghan's house and we watched Swan Princess and Anastasia.  It was a bunch of us that were in the mood for little kid movies that are just so cute.  Lets see it was Jayne, Debbie, Emilee, Katie, Gabby who left early, Sarah who got there really late, and then Meghan and I.  So she lives right across from this guy we all know and so we went out and were going to doorbell ditch his house, well when we got out there we started laughing to hard to go do it and were sure he could hear us.  So then he was playing piano and it was right in the window, but facing the other way, so Jayne and Katie started dancing in the middle of the street.  So eventually we all started to dance and laugh really hard and he just kept playing.  Then Katie started to sing to him and he didn't ever say anything but kept playing.  so then Jayne and Katie started to dance up his steps and we found out his dad was home.  So he turns on the porch light and Jayne skips away and Katie goes and crawls on his lawn up to the window.  She said she heard his dad say that he didn't imagine all the girls outside were for him.  Then Reed stopped playing piano and moved into his room and played the guitar.  It was just so funny by this point because we knew he could hear us and chose to ignore us and show off.  then a little bit later when we were just talking and goofing around Reed came out to "throw away the trash" so pretty much that was our night and we all hung out and then Reed came over and finished the movie with us.  He kept talking and got really annoying but oh well.  Then Jayne and Katie left and then after them Debbie and Reed left so it was, Sarah, Emilee, Meghan and me.  then the next morning her mom made cinnamon rolls and it was Sarah's birthday.  So that was fun.  Then I had to go to work and that was that weekend

Now I'm freaking out because starting wednesday all my college  application information gets put onto the computer and I have to start those.  Not really looking forward to that, but defidently have to do that, no pressure there only my entire future. 
Then Saturday I take my SAT subject tests and then the 25th i take my ACT and then November 1st I take the SAT again.  Then as of November 30th I never have to deal with it again, well until March when pretty much the rest of my life will be decided by a college acceptance.  If I even get any...
 

 Hey guys
wow well long time no post! lol
so anyway, I don't even know where I left off, I'm going to have to check that out before I continue so I can let you all know what is up with me since last time.....OH WOW!! okay so this was way back at the beggining of July! holy cow! so anyway I guess I will start with Katey' and the mall trip
so we went and took my brother and his friend Dan. This kid is hilarious, like I've never met a kid that was this funny. so we get to the mall and one of those creepy crazy sales people that have the things in the middle where they are selling like hair products or sunglasses or cell phones or something crazy like that. so anyway this guy who was selling straighteners came over and literally dragged her to the chair thing and started messing with her hair. it was soooo funny.  then dan and my brother ryan bought this nerf gun at the toy store thing and ran around and shot me and katey and then video taped it all....so then I guess they went into this store and were video taping which is apparently illegal so oops...and then right as we were about to leave this lady came up to us and told my brother and dan that the mall security cop people were looking for them!!!! haha it was flippin hilarious, dan wanted to run out of the exit. then we went out the wrong exit and had to walk like two miles to go over to Mimi's Cafe for food....it was so hot I was like I'm going to die by the end of that walk. so then we ate and were headed to Best Buy and so Dan decides he wants Ryan to push him in this cart and so they were going and my brother ditched him so Dan sat there and tried to push himself with the wall. Apparently this isn't the best idea...because he ended up pushing himself up over the curb and into the road where a car was coming! and he couldn't get out.  
I sware that was like all I did all July! well actually I ended up feeding for Carley again for 8 days and they payed me 160 dollars!!! double what I was supposed to get paid! that was nice
so then I had link crew which is pretty much some juniors and seniors showing all of the incoming freshman the school and that stuff. it was actually fun! I also went to the Breaking Dawn midnight release at Borders! that was pretty cool...we got there like a half an hour before all of the special stuff started and went and got Starbucks, Carmel Frap w/ extra carmel sauce is officially the best starbucks drink EVER!!! 
anyway we ended up sitting in the psychology section which really indicates it was the SEX SECTION! I sware there were like 400 books about sex and stuff....they had a pop-up book for it! now anytime anybody says pop up I will laugh hystarically! it was an amazing time...then it took me twoish days to read...I won't spoil it because I have no idea who's read it who hasn't or who even wants too! but to be honest I was rather disappointed, there were good parts and MY Emmett was flippin amazing but really there was so much that I didn't like about that book.  and actually I have to get that back from Carley!  so anyway Katey and I had so much pudding and jello! It was amazing we were so tired we were all giggly and so we couldn't stop saying jello and jiggling it all over the place. but I had spent the night of the release and then the following night at Katey's.
then that following friday I picked up my schedule, and that sunday (the day before SCHOOL starts) was amazing! my cousins came up to Sacramento because they were flying out of there to NY since it was cheaper for the tickets.  but so I hadn't seen them since mid December.  We went to this water park called Sunsplash! It was so fun, except I got really sunburned! that part sort of sucked but it didn't suck until afterwards so w/e! but it was really nice seeing them and my mom went to the mall while we were there and bought me this really cute dress.
then school started on monday and.....well school...! granted i generally like school and it is my last year (SENIOR BABY) haha but you know I'm going to miss my borin old summer.  but two ap classes, one science, a ta, psych and socio, and then the required other classes.  So a fairly difficult year, but it shouldn't be to bad because I love all but one of my classes!n
and now it's friday night at 9:17 and I could be at our lame first dance, but nobody was going this year so I decided to pass... and I'm pet sitting this weekend for this lady Monica and she has 13 dogs, but I'm only watching 7 of them plus she has three horses and a goat...freaking so many animals, but I'm excited because I get paid, get this, $150 dollars for the weekend! I am so thrilled! I'm there from tomorrow morning till Sunday evening! it's going to be so cool! that is so much money for two days of work

Anyways so I will tell you how that all goes and how school goes next week if I get on and repost and stop being lazy! I think I'm going to try to post on fridays and see how that goes

I have no idea how to do this.  I really wanted to get a Breaking Dawn widget thing, timer whatever you want to call it onto my page, but I am unsure as to how to go about this.  If you could help me out I would appreciate it.  Just send my a comment or message or something along those lines.

Anyway because I'm unsure as to how to do that I'm going to do something I've been meaning to do.  I am using somebody else's idea and adding on her 10 + 1 things you didn't know about me.

1. I have two dogs, two cats, a bird, and a horse.  The horse believes he is a dog, don't ask me why he probably has some head damage or something
2.  I have seen The Phantom of the Opera twice.  Not the movie, but the play.  First time I saw it with my mom in the second row, it was amazing.  The second with one of my best friends, Katey.  
3.  I hate cinammon gum.  Any other flavor and I like it, but I hate the taste, the smell everything about it.  I also hate skittles and starbursts for that matter
4.  I hang out with three very different groups of people. At school there was my morning crowd, which consisted of all of my brilliant friends. My break friends, whom I actually don't get along with as much, but I like a few of them.  Then there are my besties, my lunch crowd.   They are the most amazing people ever.
5. I love Twilight and A Great and Terrible Beauty...but I love AGATB more!!!
6. I have never been outside of the USA.  It is rather unfortunate, but true.
7. I've never really been kissed.  I don't count the one time when I was in third grade with my sort of boyfriend. I was to young for it to count and it wasn't really a kiss
8.  I want to be involved with either psychology or be an editor.  I have no idea how to go about being either.
9. I love almost all types of music.  Not the biggest fan of country but other than that....
10. I hardly ever throw anything away.  I've been meaning to, but I'm a pack rat like my grandmother was.
and the last one
11. I only clean my room when I'm really angry or in the middle of the night when I can't sleep

yes I know, some of those were extrodinarily random, and some of them weren't really that out there.  I don't know which I like more about that.

I am actually pretty excited.  I'm going to Monterey/ Carmel for a few days with my family.  I'm pretty excited. We aren't really doing anything just hanging out, but oh well.  Either way I won't be in my boring home. My bestie is staying here to watch our animals, she lives right up the road so it doesn't really matter.  We were supposed to have this lady I work with stay at our house, but nope she got sick.  I haven't been on an actual vacation in well exactly a year.  
Last year on father's day we went and picked up my cousin's and went to Disneyland.  My poor dad now will have two Father's days in a row driving.  Whatever he loved our trip to Disneyland and he's really looking forward to this one because he just gets to relax for four days without stress and stuff.  While I get to scope out hot guys....kidding...sort of.  
Anyways so I won't be on anything, my email, my facebook, or my beautiful IMDb boards.  With all of my AGATB and Twilight buddies, I will miss you and most likely will go through like some sort of internet withdrawel's.  Anyway, I am excited for our trip.  
Oh I finally talked my mom into reading The Host and she's going to start on the trip and then after that she will be reading Twilight (she doesn't know that yet, but that's my plan).  Soon afterwards, because I still need to buy the AGATB and RA and then after I reread them for like the billionth time she will read those too! I don't think she'll mind reading those, I think she'll like them. 

bye guys